Chapter 4 – Religious Belief
My new friends couldn’t stop laughing at me at how fast I pulled off the clothes. What wasn’t so funny was that the shirt and slacks became invisible to my eyes. They both stuffed those items into their bags while still laughing.
Until today, I was afraid to tell the staff or anyone I couldn’t see a single item of clothing once it was on me. I took advantage of my privilege and had one of the staff. Always dress me after my baths, preventing me from slipping on something wrong – or nothing at all.
Neither of them was laughing and pulled me into an embracing hug that felt wonderful.
Lilian said, “Your decision to be how you have been seeing yourself.”
“We understand why you wanted to stop wearing clothes now.” Ivana interrupted.
With tears running down my face and happy with the decision, I replied, “Yes! yes!”
We talked about boys, the academy, and my new naked lifestyle until we were all tired. Neither Lilian nor Ivana had any covers and slept in pajamas or gowns the staff brought over. As for me, I was shocked at how fast I went to sleep without anything covering me. ‘Next morning was Sunday. I lay there watching my friends sleeping with me on my king-sized bed.
I slipped from the bed without waking them up. The first thing I noticed in the bathroom was no large towels on the shelf near the shower. There were small towels (larger supply) for me to dry with. I eventually explained to my friends how I saw myself. No matter what I wore, a ball gown or slacks and blouse, soon it became invisible to me.
The reality of my decision is finally starting to make itself clear that I’m not supposed to be in clothes. People will see me as I see myself – naked. Returning to my bedroom after my shower, I passed Ivana and Lilian as they entered the bathroom. I noticed Mom and two of the staff that assisted me.
Fully aware of my nudity, I sat on my bed. Mom asked me how my night had been and if I was still comfortable with my new friends. My friends returned from their quick shower and sat on the bed with me, taking up the space on either side of me. Mom told us the assistants were here to get ready for church.
Mom then asked me if I was standing by my decision to be nude under religious beliefs. My back was up, so I put my arms around my friends and said, “Mom, I never should have worn clothes. It has been too long since I saw myself wearing clothes. Even in my reflection, I am always in the nude.”
I watched as Ivana and Liliana were ushered into the bathroom by one of the assistants. Mom told me they planned to introduce me in my natural state to the church. Just the idea of walking into the place of worship was terrifying. Today I will be attending church in the nude for the first time.
I have gotten used to imagining myself nude at church for months now. Like stripping at the ball the previous night, I have gotten used to seeing myself naked and am confident that my staff would dress me well.
What makes me nervous about attending church naked is the potential reactions from those not open to the nude laws. Last night everyone either worked for my parents or associated with them. My friends returned all dolled up in some of my discarded dresses, sheer stockings, and heels. Now it was my turn in the bathroom.
Your dad spoke to the academy chairman of the board and will not have any issues from the school when you return tomorrow. For legal reasons, we need to have an emergency meeting after church. Your dad and I have discussed with church leaders to attend church nude and in support of your decision.” Mom left my room after we girls were ready.
The assistants had the bathwater ready and told me to get in. I stood as they began waxing my whole body from the neck down. Then as I was about to sit in the water, they rubbed some cream on my body to stop the hair growth. I sat in the booth chair on a towel while the assistants fixed my hair and makeup.
I walked out of the bedroom to get a better look at my friends in the dresses I used to wear to school, and they looked fabulous. I could see those dresses on them, but they were invisible when I wore them. After stepping out of the bedroom, I looked back.
Even though, for the past several months, I have been seeing myself naked everywhere…, and I mean everywhere. After showering, the staff put clothes on my body; even though I couldn’t see them, I could feel them.
I understand what happened to me and why I couldn’t see anything on my body. Everything from a simple nightgown to a formal gown is invisible. Not sure how to put it, but it doesn’t feel strange being the only one naked sitting at the breakfast table. I now see the reactions of my parents to my nudity. The numerous times I sat there with my family and others, being naked among them wasn’t weird.
Seeing their reactions does feel strange and a preview of what to expect when entering the church and elsewhere. Ivana turned to me and asked, “Last night seems like a blur of you stripping everything off. Are you still ok with that decision?”
Thinking about how to respond, I got up from the table and walked to the sink for water. I never imagined that a split decision would lead me to experience the world without clothes, and my parents are ok with it. My awareness that everyone could see the unobstructed view of my naked body was apparent.
I placed my arms around my friend’s shoulders and said, “At least now everyone can see how I have been seeing myself.” I sat down and pulled my chair in as I picked up a piece of bacon. To answer the question, I said, “A little nervous being nude in front of family and staff this morning, but I am still okay with my decision to be nude and face the world at church as I see myself.”
Despite knowing everyone from this point is seeing all of me. I do not have any sense of feeling uncomfortable or embarrassed. That could change after walking into the church nude. Relieved to no longer worry about being dressed in something that looked horrible. Not to conceal anything, I pulled my back up and relaxed my legs.
Mom said, “Your dad and I support your decision. Due to the nature of your decision, we have ensured the necessary resources are available so you can practice your new lifestyle. Before we continue, you need to sign this agreement before we leave for church, filed with the Bureau of Lifestyles.”
I read the document while relying on my dad to explain the legal jargon. To sum it up, being required to be nude and having appropriate safety equipment are the only exceptions. Accessories such as jewelry, sunglasses, purses, piercings, and tattoos are also allowed. (Piercings and tattoos must not be excessive to the point where they cover too much or detract from the beauty.
I wrote this part because I see it from my point of view of it being me. I would want the choice of accessories just as others would.
My hand trembled as I took the offered pen and signed in the marked spots. I passed the document to my friends and watched them sign it as witnesses. I should be uncomfortable knowing I just signed away all rights to wear clothing. I am satisfied with my decision.
‘I sat in the back of my parents’ large SUV and said, “Mom, with all those nude visions over the past months, I was worried that you or Dad would think something was wrong with me and send me to some medical place.” I could feel the tears coming down my face ruining my makeup, dabbing my eyes.
My parents pulled into some parking slot until I was ready, and one of the girls touched up. Mom suggested using these wipes to remove the makeup and go natural. All while everyone was working on my face. Dad said, “We know you are smart and making one of your first major decisions. Expect some harsh reactions from people that do not agree.”
Mom added, “We will need you to gain some thick skin to deal with anyone who tries to trample on your beliefs. We will push you to stand your ground with the media and the public. Be ready once you are out in the church parking lot at the Town Center Mall. Academy emergency board meeting will be at the megaplex theater after lunch.”
My thoughts shifted from my concerns about being naked at the church to the meeting. Ivana and Lillian got out first after Dad pulled up near the entrance. Then with both of them handing their hand out to me, I was excited to gasp from others that witnessed my lack of clothing. I stopped closer to them as we walked to the minister, who asked us to join him in greeting.
I stood there while everyone passed, shaking my hands. Most of the people looked at me only briefly. I noticed some women whispering to their friends. Hopefully, all the comments were about being brave and words like that. Due to being out there at the door and so public, nothing spoken out loud was offensive. Someone handed me a towel and told me to sit on it and walk with everyone to one of the first rows of seating.
I had mixed feelings about if I should be comfortable, mortified, or embarrassed when asked to stand up during the service. The whole room’s eyes were on me, and I felt at ease seeing only a few that couldn’t glance my way. The rest of the service was uneventful.